Dad

Hi Dad...

How are you? What have you been up too? I guess you can see how I am..

I have been going through so much lately.. Can u see me? I try to get by and not show others how I actually feel but I am actually sad and at times I am hurt.. I miss you but I don’t know how to express how I feel. I guess this is one way of informing you..

So tell me, what have you been up too up there or have you joined the party in hell?? haha You remember what you use to say Dad? Why go to heaven when the party is in hell!!! I will never forget that.. guess what dad I have a 1st class ticket to hell as well... hahaha

Everyone is doing well here.. Mandy (Garry's girl) is in Singapore and she is visiting me this Thursday and then she is off to Thailand.. I haven't met Dennis in awhile his last trip we didn’t meet at all.. You know right he got married? I am sure you do, silly question.

Mum, is still the same, we have our ups and down's.. More down's then up I reckon.. Oh well it makes me stronger in a way..

I haven't call Elaine, I can’t seem to bring myself to call her.. I know I should but I feel bad..

The boy's miss you very much dad.. and you little girl misses you too.. Have you meet Steven there? I will light a candle for you dad.. I will also drink a scotch for u as well.. ha-ha

If I could only call you now there is so much I want to tell you.. It seems silly writing it up on here you.. I have to let it out..it’s been hard with you no here any more.

Dad, Eric Ba passed away 7mths ago.. he was a good man.. I miss him as well.. I am glad I got to see him before his last breath..

Well I am not sure what else to say but I love you and I miss you so much.. Take care dad..

Curiousity Killed Jerry

It had only been two days.. But it was the two best days. I never knew he could of made me so happy!

Who would have thought i could love so much? Never in my wildest days i thought i would cry so much over my kitten.. Reason is coz i am scared of cats..strange i know..

Loving a person is so different from loving a pet.. My Jerry had my unconditional love.. I had planned so much for him.. I rushed home just to see his adorable eyes and his gremlin ears..but no jerry..

Jerry was curious and that's what killed him.. I am lost, hurt and devastated.. I miss him so much.. You are probably saying "come on its only been 2 days!"..but those two days i was so happy and i finally felt complete..

R.I.P Jerry..

Life is such..

I got news yesterday which upset me.. It made me miss my father so much.. My friend's father passed away yesterday. God rest his soul.. He was a good man, i still can picture the time when we were younger running about in her house and how we use to drink by the bar...

As years went by i lost contact and drifted away from friends who i use to hang out with...Some moved abroad, some just vanished, some married and other just end up enemies..

This particular friend of mine, we have shared memories which i will always remember.. She got her 1st tattoo with me..hahha (those were the days).. Even though we have drifted and you have moved abroad i will always be here when you need someone to talk too.. a shoulder to cry on.. I assume i am the last person you would call but remember i am always here and i will always be on your side..

Hang in there sweety and may god give you strength through this hard time you are facing...