Over

Yes i am cruel and cold... Only towards you...

I still can't accept what you did but i have moved on.. How dare you say those things to me..? You screwed with the situation, you deal with it! Don't blame others for your actions, don't try to justify when its too late..

The alcohol streaming though me made me say things which i shouldn't.. i should of walked away and be the better person..but after 3 and half years i couldn't...

You have destroyed all my dreams of marriage and a happy ending.. Why did u? Now turn it around and say i fucked up your life... HAHA I cant explain what goes through my head..

You know what? I have found someone so much better than i expected.. I am happy and now i have moved on..just leave me and be whoever you want and do whatever you want..

And yes.. i hope god has mercy on my evil heart and thoughts..

Dad

Dad i miss you...

I never knew that losing someone can hurt so badly. I have tried to be strong but i am crumbling inside. Not wanting others to see or hear my pain... I don’t know how much longer i can hold my head up...

If i was given one day, just one day to be in you presence i would say and do so much... i don’t think i expressed enough how i felt towards you. We were apart for so long and when i thought thing were about to change, GOD decided that you go back to him... I didn’t get that chance Dad. I am sorry!

I hope that i have made you proud in some way... i know i have let you down as well but i want you to know that you are my backbone to surviving... i strive to be like you but i will never compare but to know i come from the same blood i am honoured..

Only after you left, i knew who you really were. What it was like for you when you were younger which none of your children knew... We were all shocked that you have made your life what it was. We are all proud to have you as our father...

Dad? I wonder how you are up there. I wonder what you do. I miss you Dad... Since you left i still have the home number under DAD... When i call i forget sometimes and after realising i hang up...

Mum is doing fine... I don’t want to see her go... It would brake me...Dad give me strength! My wish was to go before you and mum but i guess my wish didn’t come true...

Dad, you know what i have finally met someone... I wish you had a chance to meet him... Nice guy...

Dad when i think about my wedding day i have always pictured you dancing with me. Father and Daughter Dance... Now that you are no longer around i don’t know who will dance with me...

Dad i love you... I will never stop thinking about you... Dad, don’t stop watching me ok?

R.I.P.
Raymond G. Moyle

Baby..

He has captured my heart.. What a feeling.. I have not felt this way before.. what is it about him? It's a question I ask myself constantly.. Is it the way he treats me? Is it the way he holds me? All these questions..should I keep on asking? I have realised that I should just enjoy this moment..

I feel as I am on air when I am around him.. those butterflies I feel just before seeing him.. I am who I am around him. I don't need to try to impress him, I don't pretend to be someone else when I am with him..It's just me..

You have made me feel what love is all about.. its was strange how we meet..and how we have become one.. Honestly I was scared to commit seeing my situation when we first meet.. but what is risk all about right? I didn't want to regret later in life knowing that I had let the chance of a lifetime run me by..

The risk we both took was something I know we didnt regret..

I sit and remember all the times we have spent together and it always puts a smile on my face.. When I am sad or upset all I need to do is look at your picture or hear your voice and all my problems seem to fade away..

You must of put a love spell on me as I cant stop thinking about you.. You are my love..

Love U Baby...

It's you..

I glance at your glistening eyes
As we make sweet love
And I smile just at the view of you
Laying there next to me
You make me so happy
And that is oh so true
You gave me that something
That I've been searching for
Your soft tender lips
Up against mine
Holding each other close
As if we've never loved at all
You say you love me
And I know it's true
For this is...The feeling of a tender affection
That I just can't explain
When I see you,I know everything is ok
When I see you,I know it was meant to be
There is no easy explanation
For my love for you,
All I can say is

I LOVE YOU!!!